The Sun Makers

While I have clearly got some of the greatest friends in the world, who I frequently mention on this blog (probably more than they realize), I thought I would take a moment to thank the others who I don't mention as frequently, but have all helped mentor me and teach me the life lessons that have made me the person I am today.

Lori Behr (My Mother)
Alma Hoffman (My Maternal Grandmother)

Mark Jacobson

Archangelo "Tony" Cecilio

Marge Karpinski
Christopher Frank
David Seltzer
Edie Sherman
Dan Lynch
Susan Handelman
Concettina Lucarini
Sue Park
Gail Paternoster

Eileen Robbins

I doubt I would be the person I am today without the influence of these people, and for that I thank them.

The Hungry Earth

So got a new job today, higher rates than ever before,  I love when that happens. Its a tutoring gig, I hope I'm not too rusty. Tomorrow is going to be my busiest day in a long time; I start off with an early morning carpet cleaning gig, then a shower, then off to NE to help Ivan train the new computer managers, then home for a bite to eat (hopefully), before I go off to my new tutoring gig. Then I have another carpet job on thursday. I can't wait till Friday just so I can finally relax a bit.
At least I have Saturday and Sunday to look forward to, should be the best days I've had in quite a while. There's nothing quite as satisfying as time spent with your best friends.

The Time Monster

People are funny creatures, all about the old and the new. We tend to go towards the old because it is familiar to us, we feel safe and comforted by it, we know it and it knows us and that is why we love it so much.
On the other hand the new is exciting and terrifying at the same time, a whole new world of possibilities, a whole new reality waiting to be discovered, it could bring us to an unbelievably bright future or untold darkness. The only way we will ever really find out is to take a flying leap into the new and hope for the best.
We can not hide in the past as we will be constantly doomed to repeat our mistakes forever, but we must learn from the past and take from it what helped us the most and what held us back the most, and figure out how to replicate the good and avoid the bad. Jump into the new with the knowledge of the old. It is only through the risk of trying the new that we can truly live.

The Fires of Pompeii

It amazes me how someone can watch others suffer with no remorse at all, when all it would take to stop said suffering is to flip a switch. It amazes me more to watch said person, who when the switch was finally flipped on, without a second thought flips the switch back off. Some people are truly not human.

Galaxy 4

I must admit I love when 169 pops up in random places, I especially liked seeing it on my blog counter last night. It's funny how the simplest things can make you smile.

 

See I told you it was there =)

The Myth Makers

I just felt compelled to write out a list of the people (other than family) who I consider myself to be closest to at this point in time, the people that I am most thankful for. If you find that you're not on this list, don't worry it doesn't mean I don't care about you, it just means that I don't think we're all that close. Most people are on this list for different reasons and have all had different impacts on my life. They are in no particular order whatsoever (so don't get mad if you're below X ). It's just whatever order I happen to type them in (well some may be grouped with others I met at the same time, but other than that there's no order)

Paula Sitek

Blake DeCarvalho

Angela Platchkov

Rayn Phillips

Ivan Moutinho

Gladson Thomas

Clara Wong

Gah Tang

Ricky Zhao

Olga Voronenko

Tasveer Khawaja

Gurinder Singh

Charis Trinidad

Vincent Nguyen

Philip Chen

Amy Chau

Min Zheng
Sandra Trinh

Eugene Olkhov

Josh Belitsky

Michael Krolikowski

Brad Jacobson

Tammy Sloan

Richard Wendler-Hass

Richard Devlin

Ciril Abraham

Eliot Shtruzberg

Kristi Vojniku

Sheharyar Sohail

Fawzi Habib

Kris Rielly

Jimmy Lam

Samantha Joy

The funny thing is no matter how absolutely off-beat the people on this list are, I love them all the more for it.

I hope that I can keep all of these people in my life, I know that if this list had been written last year, it would have included quite a few additional names. Names of people who I've simply lost contact with and I hate that I have, but maybe its all for some reason, only time will tell.
But while this list may have lost names from one that might have been written last year, it also includes more people that I have become closer to within the past year, and I think that is simply fantastic.

Terminus

New Rule: From this point on I will only be bothering with the people who care to have me in their lives. The people who actually bother to get in touch with me every so often. So I may loose a few "friends". Odds are if I haven't talked to you in the last 3 months, your not that great of a friend anymore anyway. You're now an acquaintance, want that to change make an effort. I'm tired of fighting this one sided battle. It's unbelievable how much college is able to change some people. So you're life has changed a bit, get over it, all of our lives have changed, that's what college does, it's no reason to just write off everyone from your past. So if at the end of the day I have less friends than so be it, I'd much rather have a few friends who actually bother to keep me in their lives than many friends who couldn't give less of a shit about me.
The winds are changing, time to set sail in a new direction.

Vengeance on Varos

Okay, you've done it now, I'm pissed. This has been going on for far too long. I keep setting aside days for you and you don't even have the decency to call and say that its not going to work for you tonight. But you have the gall to expect me to drop everything that is going on in my life the second you want the work done. Well guess what I'm not going to be bending over backwards to help you with your piddly little problems from now on, figure things out on your own. My loyalty is no longer with you. Frankly it was never that good of a job anyway, I don't care how hard up for money I become, I'm tired of putting the people who actually care about me on hold because you might call with a job. I'm done.

Silence in the Library

It seems to me that the biggest problems that we have today can be boiled down to one thing: communication. Whether it be two people who each think that one will call the other only to result in neither being called or two pieces of technology that simply won't match up the way you want them to communications problems loom everywhere.
In business communication problems cost time and money, neither of which is easy to recover.
In life communication problems can cost even more important things, friendships, relationships, or even life.
The point is we must be careful in how we communicate with others, we must listen to what others say, question that which we do not understand. And we must learn to be clear when communicating to others. The problems that arise from ill-conceived communications are simply not worth it.

Revelation of the Daleks

I hate those moments where I'm giving someone advice and I come across the revelation that I should be following the advice myself. On the one hand it makes me realize just how hard it can be to follow my advice and makes me realize how much stronger the people who do follow my advice are than me. On the other hand I feel a bit hypocritical that I am not following through on the idea myself.
Perhaps this is how I was meant to come to these conclusions all along, and by helping others, I am in turn helping myself. I know that whenever I feel down, helping someone through their problems always brightens my day, sometimes to the point that I feel like I am living my life through helping others with theirs. But I think that this is a good thing, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I just wish I could find the solutions to my problems along with the solutions to other peoples problems every so often.

The Ribos Operation

I can not wait until the day that I can become a real psychologist and stop doing all these odd jobs for the odd bit of money. These bit jobs just aren't who I am. If I have to tell one more person that I've become a carpet cleaner for the summer I think I might go mad...well madder than I already am. I suppose for right now I can only take life one day at a time.

The Power of the Daleks

This evening I went to a family party, never have been very fond of those, but I muddled on through with a little help from my friends (god I love texting) While not a man or religion, I could not help but think, what would happen if these were the people I was with when the rapture came. What a dreadful thought that these would be the people I would spend my final moments with. I thought I'd much rather be spending my last moments on earth with other bits of family or my friends. But luckily fate smiled upon me and no rapture arrived (though I never really thought it would [see earlier post]) On the bright side, it does make me realize how much I appreciate my friends. I really love them.

Doctor Who: The TV Movie

I'm not quite myself lately, I don't know how to describe it. I'm just not me. It's not like I'm always depressed or anything, because I do generally get happy, usually for long periods of time. I just seem to be going through the motions. I think its mostly boredom and the realization that I will be cleaning carpets all summer, I think I'd rather face the daleks and cybermen simultaneously.  At least I have my friends and some family, I don't know what I'd do without them.

A Fix with Sontarans

I find it funny how when your ready to work a job, people are never ready for you, but the minute that they have time and want the job done you're supposed to stop your life for them. When is it that we lost all consideration for the lives of others.
And for future reference odds are if I don't answer my phone the first time, calling me 6 more times in the next ten minutes isn't going to help you, I probably have my phone on silent, probably with good reason, and I will see your calls later. Or if it is so bloody urgent just text me and be done with this never-ending game of sodding phone tag.

The Visitation

Since I have been back in Philly, I have visited many people, and I have thoroughly enjoyed my visits with most if not all of them. Yet there are always those couple of people, who I always look forward to seeing but can never seem to meet up with. In fact now that I think about it there are about 4 different categories of people and I always seem to run into a mishmosh of all of them.
The 4 basic categories are:
Extended Family
These are the people I absolutely adore, I consider these people to be those closest to me. The people that I can never seem to get enough of, it is these people that I can simply be around and suddenly I feel much happier than before. These are the people that I would do anything for in life as I truly consider them to be family, I love them with all my heart and hope that they are never out of my life for long.
The Good Friend
These are the people that I enjoy seeing and would not mind doing favors for. These people are close to me, but not as close as "Extended Family" I do enjoy seeing them, but will not always go out of my way to do so. I care enough for these people that I am always willing to lend an ear or give advice and I hope that they are not out of contact with me for extended periods without the occasional check in.
The Casual Acquaintance
These are the folks who I really won't plan on seeing, but tend to be in the same circles of people as me. I care enough to never want to see anything bad happen to these people. In all honesty, I probably won't see them all that much, and I really won't mind much either way, in fact prolonged exposure to these people may cause me to get annoyed with them easily.
Vagabonds
These are the people I really could not care less about. They easily get on my nerves and frankly I don't enjoy being around them. After a while the mere sight of them or sound of their voice can make my skin crawl. Admittedly, I do not have many people who fit in this category, but it is enough that it is easily a category of its own. Odds are if your reading this, you're not a part of this category so don't worry lol.

I'm always curious if people know just which category they belong in as far as I am concerned, as well as which I fit into in their minds. If you're curious just tell me which category you think you are a part of and I will be completely honest (Time Lord's Honor) and tell you where I feel you fit.

The End of the World

Someone recently asked me what my opinion was over the whole rapture business on the 21st of May. I just thought I would share my response with you all. It is as follows:
While I am not a particularly religious man, I have been looking into the rapture recently, mostly because of the sheer amount of advertising that is going around about it. While I do think that there will come a time when the human race as we know it comes to an end, I do not think that that time is upon us just yet.
I can't help but think that the May 21st date was more or less pulled out of a hat as there is almost no real evidence supporting it. That coupled with the fact that so many different groups have chosen different dates for the rapture, Oct 21, 2011; 2012. I think that when the end is meant to come there will be some sort of track-able signs.
When all is said and done the rapture will probably come at our own hands, from the activation of nuclear warfare, or some similar method. I think that when it comes to good or evil we never need look further than ourselves, for the human race is the perfect representation of good and evil, with some individuals who live their lives whilst trying to be good and help others, and then there are the individuals like the head of BP, who care only about profit and their own well-being, knowing that they will harm others to get it, and simply not caring about those they hurt.
But basically, I don't think the rapture is upon us just yet; there will always be religious zealots, who do things like this to try and fill out their ranks, as if the end of the world will make everyone commit to their religion. I think we have plenty of time left to live our lives. But either way I think the best thing that any of us can do is live our lives to the fullest everyday and focus on being with the people we care about most.

Resurrection of the Daleks

After a Hiatus that was much longer than originally intended (pointed out to me by one of my all time favorite people...and possibly the only person who still reads this blog) Pandorica is coming back and will be better than ever. It will now fully be used for its original purpose, a repository for my thoughts, they may not always be long, but they will always reflect me in some manner. Thanks for sticking around. I'm glad to be back.